Loft in Seattle

I want to rent a
Loft in Seattle and spend
The rest of my life there with you
We'll be dirt poor but
None of that will matter because
We'll have our art to get us through

We'll look down on
Puget sound
And I'll bring you
Your coffee in bed
And then we'll talk about
Half written songs
And the latest things that we read

On Sunday evening
I'll kidnap you from your responsibilities
And take you out to the mountain
We'll get in touch again
Talking like old friends
And stairing up at the hevens

Together we'll lie our
Faces turned to the sky
And our hearts beating in unison
Then you'll pull close to me and
We'll make love gently
Away from societies dilusions

We'll get old and
Maybe even have kids
That grow up to be happy and whole
And in our retirement
We'll recall the time we spent
in our Loft in Seattle
in our Loft in Seattle

The Prodigal
By Abigail Anderson

I've worn out my shoes trying to walk away
My tears have all dried my hearts faded and freyed
Don't think I can make it another day
Spend my nights dreaming of home

I've been looking to the shaddows for company
Listening to my own voice to comfort me
The road has grown cold and lonely
Spend my nights dreaming of home

Chorus:
And I know that I'm in your heart there
There's food a bed and a warm fire
There's people who know me who always will hold me
And never let me fall

I've been listening to the siren's calling in the bay
Resisted their songs for the last five days
Till even they gave up and swam away
And I'll spend tonight dreaming of home

I chased a spector into the cold night
Wandered lonely meadows in the pale blue light
Wasted my youth on earthly delights
Now I spend my nights dreaming of home

Chorus:

The Holes in Myself

I tried to fill the holes in myself
With peices of somebody else and
As I fit the puzzle together
I found that it didn't help
And I faced my imperfections
In the circus mirror of reality
And discovered my shame
For the weekness inherint in me

I became my shaddow and my
Ego turned an sneared
I wanted to find a cure
For the disapearance
That I feared
So I packed you
And marketed you
As the perfect man
I wanted someone to complete
The broken heart that I had

I traced our passions course
With the idleness of my mind I
Had it all planned out
Composed each
One of your lines
A play in side my mind
To comfort me in my fear
In hopes that dreams might salve
The wounds I couldn't heal
But kingdoms built on dreams are
Sure to topple and to fall
And I couldn't maintain
The false security of it all
As the castle began to crumble
And the curtains to decay
I felt my fears fall around me
And hoped to fade away

Sleeping in my apathy
He found me in his way
An unlikely prince charming
Who'd come to save the day
And pull me from the dragons
My cynicism had enslaved
And show me that magic
can still exist in the mundane

There was no completion
He just handed back my heart
And listened as I told him
The story of how it fell apart.

Orpheus Bows

I have a habit
Of pulling away
From what I love
Before my heart breaks
A cushion of space
to keep myself safe

But I don't think I can fun fast enough this time
Don't have what it takes
To out distance the fault line
And soon it will swallow me whole
All of these forgotten sorrow

I wasted my time
pursuing perfection
you we're wiser for heading
the other direction
but now it's all come to an end

I thought it was magic
I would bring you to life again
Followed into the maddness
Extended an outstreached hand
But I looked back my darling
I looked back, and I'm sorry

But I have a habit
Of pulling away
From what I love
Before my heart breaks
A cushion of space
To keep myself safe

But I don't think I can run
Fast enough this time
Don't have what it takes
To out distance the fault line
And soon it will swallow me whole
All of that forgotten sorrow.

 

The Widows Lament

I woke up
from a dream in which you held me
I woke up in tears
but it wasn't real and it hasn't been
for the last couple of years

But still in these
moonlit dreams
my heart searches for some secret melody
that I could sing and it would bring you back to me

Chorus:
Oh dreams may go
the tides turn the autumn leaves fall
but I'll never forget you my love
though the earth cradle you in your pall

Remember when we first met
it was 1932
it was a hard year
but I never noticed when I was around you

your eyes seemed
to hold the secrets of all I wanted to know
and you looked in to
the hidden cavern of my soul

And then our wedding day
nothing seemed to go right
but you laughed so merrily
when I walked out in white
we said our vows
you kissed me there
carried me down the isle
as our family
followed suit murmuring single file

Chorus:

We were going to have children
but we never seemed to succeed
and I was scared you'd turn to other women
in stead of saying sterile with me

one night I lost my temper cause
you had come home late
and you listened as
I poured out the fear I'd come to hate

You took my hand you kissed my palm
looked at me so seriously
said you couldn't leave
any more then
a fish could leave the sea

Chorus:

You worked in the mill for years
your hands were calloused and strong
but you held me so gently at night when you'd come home

But time is cruel
the fates spool
seems to spin at a dizzying pace
and arthritic hands
now smooth the sheets
that hold a painfully empty space

Chorus:

The Fox and the Hunt

When I was scared and ready to flee
Thought the hunt was after me
Thought they would kill me for what I am
couldn't stand the thought of breaking down for them

You didn't call the dogs to chace
Wiped the tear streaks from off of my face
Kept my secrets held my dreams
and never asked the same of me

Through the wild days and the calm
through the darkest nights I've known
you have been the sentinal for me
the promise of shore on an empty sea
and I loved you even when I didn't say it to you
and I loved you more then I knew how to
I loved you more then I thought I could
I loved you more then you said I should

So now you say you got a big black hole
and its gnawing at your soul
and you need some time to get away
and some space so you can contemplate
I won't call the dogs to chase
I'll wipe the tear streaks from off of your face
I'll keep your secrets hold your dreams
you know you can always ask it of

If you return and you have changed
don't ever think I'll turn you away
as long as the heart of the man remains
the scars you collect don't effect a thing

and I loved you even when I didn't say it to you
I loved you more then I knew how to
I loved you more then I thought I would
I loved you more then you said I should